And I'm coming back new a improved. lots of art work and photos soon to be posted.

I am a Struggling Romantic in a world where love is dying. A heart bursting with tears and a heart to give but no one to receive it.

Its pretty Shitty when you care about someone so much but then you end up losing them because of the fact that your insecure...
I miss you, and I tell you that, your reaction is a response saying, I miss you too.. But then again when I say I love you... I love you too.... But with no meaning... I'm sorry everything has messed up.. It makes me sad to even think, that we once had something amazing, you made me smile like all the time. But then again, like now we don't talk at all.... I miss you.. I miss talking to you all the time. You were my bestest friend. And now were just nothing more than aquantiances... and it sucks to be that due to the fact that we were so close and one point and now were just so far apart... 630 miles away.. Its not even the distance that is a problem.. Its more like we don't even talk and it kills me to not talk to you.. I wanna talk like the old times when I even used to fall alseep on the phone and you would randomly sing to me and I'd hear a bit of it but then pass right out listening to your voice.. Just like you would just stay on the phone with me to hear my breath as I sleep.. and you would fall asleep too... I remember that one time when you and me woke up in the morning and we were still on the phone for about a million hours.. I miss you.. and if you ever read this you know who you are.. You were everything I wanted. You were my bestest friend ever.!!! and I only so wanted to meet ya at a powwow again. <333 Forever and always... I miss you Devin Butt...
Thinking back on everything really makes me want to cry.. I dunno why..
I guess the thought of you loving someone besides me kinda kills me inside.. Just a little...
Its alright tho.. I'm still here standing strong but putting up a front. Rawr grr. Rabble Rabble Rabble..
-Duces.

Alright I have about 10 mins to write this before I have to get to my next class.
Sitting here bored at the Library, I've started a bunch of projects lately..
I have a LOT to put up, but my time is so limited these days.
It really sucks not having time to do anything... Lol..
It reallly really sucks yo. I have a massive head ache.!
And this Swine flu shit is getting to everyones head which is kinda funny yet its not..
These days I'm not up to much but, sleep, work, art, school and sometimes friends...
I need my own Whip(CAR) Like badddddd. I hate takin Public Transportation ughhhhs. Blehs. Well I gotta go. Ima UPDATE more often.

She seemed dressed in all of me
Stretched across my shame,
All the torment and the pain
Leaked through and covered me.

I'd do anything to have her to myself,
Just to have her for myself.

Now I don't know what to do,
I don't know what to do
When she makes me sad.

She is everything to me,
The unrequited dream,
The song that no one sings,
The unattainable.
She's a myth that I have to believe in,
All I need to make it real is one more reason.

I don't know what to do,
I don't know what to do when she makes me sad.

But I won't let this build up inside of me.
I won't let this build up inside of me.
I won't let this build up inside of me.
I won't let this build up inside of me.

A catch in my throat, choke,
Torn into pieces, I won't. No.

I don't want to be this but
I won't let this build up inside of me (won't let this build up inside of me) x4

She isn't real.
I can't make her real.
She isn't real.
I can't make her real.